Dark_Light

I have a Deviantart page. I used to post some poerty, occasionally. Anyways, I was on my page tonight reading over some stuff. Nothing really good, at least to me. I mean it's not crap cos art is in the eye of the beholder, right? But anyways I was reading over one of my poems and it kind of shocked me. The contrast between how I feel now, as a person, and how I feel in this poem. They're two different people, the author of that poem and the person I am now. Granted, we're in the same body but its like.. the me who wrote the poem has taken to hiding. Or, at the very least, taken a holiday? I mean, I am happy now. I don't display it maybe bit some can see it regardless. At any rate I am happier now, very much so. It's too much to describe now, maybe I will do so later, but suffice it to say I have taken steps to go from there, to where I am now and I like it in the 'here'. Things could be better though, I mean things can always be better but the important thing is things arent worse. Better > worse, no?

Check out the poem, see whatcha think. I dunno, I notice a stark difference. Was just astounding to me reading over something I did months ago and looking at my mentality now. I'm at least 75% sure I wouldn't write something like that now, but it serves its puurpose to show me where I was and how far I have come since then. I think I can say without a doubt, I am proud of myself.

Things are looking up, I think I'm just starting to do the same. Look up, that is. No more head hung. =D

http://ikimberly.deviantart.com/art/Dark-Light-102703506

Also, I thought this was significant. Anyone who knows Steven will agree, maybe. Here is a snippet from an MSN conversation with a very good friend of mind from tonight. I hope he doesnt mind.

steven.fredericks@gmail.com says (11:14 PM):
I know you thought we were all blowing smoke up your ass back then, but you honestly have talent; it's not refined, but you've got an ability to channel your emotions and put them onto a page.

Thank you Steven, it means a lot to me. Even if I don't acknowledge the support you guys give me. <3>

Silver Wings

From tender years you took me for granted.
But still I deigned to wander through your lungs.
While you were sleeping soundly in your bed,
(Your draped were silver wings, your shutters flung)

I drew the poison from your summer's sting,
And eased the fire out your fevered skin.
I moved in you and stirred your soul to sing;
And if you left me I would move again,

I've danced 'tween sunlit strands of lover's hair;
Helped form the final words before your your death.
I've pitied you and plied your sails with air;
Gave blessing when you rose upon my breath.

AND AFTER ALL OF THIS I AM AMAZED.
THAT I AM CURSED FAR MORE THEN I AM PRAISED.

I'm just trolling the interweb. Hung around one of my fav sites. I'm getting eager for Thrice to release a new album. ^.^

Damn you Blogger!

For some reason when I sign in to blogger, or try to in this case, my attempts are thwarted by the interwebz. On occasion I have been prevented form logging in because apparently my username doesnt's exits. Yet, here I am posting. Go figure.

Anyways, I had something I wanted to post but thanks to Blogger I forgot cos I just spend like 20 mins trying to log in. Grr

Hopefully I remember later.

Medic!

I was cutting bread today for lunch, and somehow I managed to nick the end of my left thumb with the bread knife. Luckily, it didnt go deep BUT!!!! It tore into my finger like.. pretty good so like the very tip of my thumb is completely unusable now. I feel like a gimp.

On a side note, my blood tastes great. >.> Creepy, yes I know but it was yum. I'm not a vampire fyi.

Hello, my name is melty.

Melty!

Oh, I should make it clear that I meant the SNOW. It's nearly gone now and I am stoked. Camping, cycling, longboarding. All those activities can soon be taken up again and I couldn't be happier. Plus, not having to go outside all bundled up is an added bonus too. I can't ignore that. Well, I could.

Dani and I spent the majority of today outside. The yard is dry.. ish. It's dry in spots, wet in others and scattered with dog crap here and there which makes things hazardous. I cleaned up much of it anyways so that made things bearable. Found dried grass in my hair when I went to shower tonight. =P I smelt of stinky grass and other early-springtime smells. Was delightful. Okay I lied, it was not delightful. Sue me.

Tomorrow I plan to avoid the dry grass in my hair if at all possible, but as usual, four year old children tend to have a way of destroying your plans so we shall see what lies in wait for my hair. Dear lord..

Also on a side note, things with my previously mentioned ( a few posts ago) problem are moving along now at a decent speed. Due to a lack of communication on all the parties involved parts things were somewhat confusing. They are fixed now though, or maybe not so much fixed but more resolved. FYI, I was talking about WoW, and now I am talking about having quit that fucking, god forsaken life-suck of a game. I have better things to do them waste my time sitting in front of this computer. Granted, I am sitting in front of it right now but I am doing something at least semi-productive instead of wasting it on a game that will get me less the nowhere. Egad, having read over that last bit I got the impression of some bitterness. Oh well.